Zukzwang

I’m surrounded by things, deafening

Distant, detached, with nothing to kill for

No one to die for, not angry, reckoning

Things! Not mine, things nonetheless,

I’m surrounded by people, clamouring

Surrounded, and yet lonely, scared

Longing to be alone, at peace, with myself

People! Strangers, people nonetheless

I dreamt of dreaming a dream, real

Asleep, of a world of no more than a few

My world, my personal little crew

Dreams! Unattainable, dreams nonetheless

End 1

Gonna stay in this reality, profane

Rebel, go down fighting ghosts

A loyal warrior, an unreasoned battle!

Reality! Wicked, reality nonetheless

End 2

Gonna run free, without no one, with me

Tired. Leave the ball and the chain

Gonna laugh, cry, scream, lie. Give up.

Freedom! Guilty, freedom nonetheless.

Erebus

I have found myself - found myself to be lost.
I have discovered myself - discovered myself to be infinite.
I have fought myself - fought myself as invincible.
I have seen myself - seen myself as only a dream figure
So I shaped myself - shaped myself to be fluid.
And I bound myself - bound myself to be free.
And so I define myself - define myself to be indefinite.
I am no longer what I have been, not yet what I am to be. For now, I am only an evolution - an evolution of someone - someone I'm yet to meet.


"And there came the devil to the insolent child,
on wings of savor, singing of love, to him so wild.
The guardian angel had just fled sight
for he, in an uncanny pretense stood upright
for no good reason, fearless, with all his might
... he stood upright for the first time again,
by death's side, aware that life wouldn't remain."