Within

Something ticked within

And plagued everything

Even death would dance

Tuned to this empty cold rhythm -

This tick that plagued

Everything – even death.

For even death doesn’t come

To the weak in desperation,

Strange was this damage within

And stranger the cause -

A loop within a spiral

Never ending, never beginning.

It knew the world well,

A mind abandoned by itself,

Yet would stand alien

To this very person

That I had come to be -

Myself in spite of my self

You wouldn’t recognize this soul

Disfigured and worn -

Unfit to possess any life

Nor this face,

Tattered and afraid -

Withered to contain any soul.

One that doesn’t forget,

And never refrains,

Never takes flight,

And yet never remains.

And each morning that I rise

Confuses me a little

For I can never know

How they recognize me

With all their wit and wisdom

Can they not see?

Perhaps, I think

They’re not as insane I am.

Ewan finds his purpose

The world that I knew wasn’t normal. The fact that anyone could go insane given the right circumstance put the very existence of sanity in question. Everyone is innately insane. It’s just a matter of degree. If the wires are all loose, why spend enormous efforts in knitting together? Man must know true liberation.

By now, it had befallen upon my meek shoulders to free the world of its misconception of normality. Someone had to do something. But no one knew what I knew. I had to do something. Every living soul must in its lifetime realize just how insane it really is, and more importantly the freedom attached to madness. There is but one true human potential, and it is insanity. 

The seven hours that I spent in the white castle give me an unexpected, yet much needed inspiration. It gave me the purpose of my life. I knew what I had to do. I must go back and free them all.

The crazy must be allowed to burn their hair, the depressed must be free to kill themselves, the maniacs to kill others, the psychopaths to watch and enjoy as I put the world back in order - the true order being chaos itself.